Getting back to blogging...

Ok so after getting behind on my blogging a few years back from heart problems, heart surgery and recovery you'd think I'd be right back at it right? Heh, well think again. I have somewhat recently found out I have a hypothyroid as in it isn't working as quickly or as well as it should. The thyroid has to do with much of the body systems especially the endocrine system. Trying to stay active has been rough and my immune system along with the metabolism has been affected. So I have gotten sick often, more than most people. Usually a common cold turning into an ear or sinus infection, bladder infections. JOYS LOL. Now that my medications are starting to regulate my thyroid this problem should go away. I have noticed quite a change in my energy level already!! I have noticed I get down somewhat easy because I was so use to being able to do all I wanted, work, school, be a single mom and no problem or so it seemed to others and I was always upbeat. Feeling like I haven't been able to snap back just like that was already rough from recovering from heart surgery, so this has just been more of a set back. It could be much worse and others have it harder and I am so grateful for my life and the people in it don't get me wrong. Sometimes though, hiding and pretending everything is honkey dorrey when it is not entirely is just about like lying to oneself and others. So we might as well feel the pain and/or anguish of it and let it takes us for a little ride til it is done with us so we can feel whole again or closer to it.

I am still in school at Axia College of University of Phoenix. I could be done by now but breaks here and there and such have come up like things in life do at times. I am getting close though! I still have my math classes to take, that I've put off to the end. Something that would have been nice to get over and done with but ah well.

I am in between jobs and looking for something that will be flexible enough for me being in Kenzie's life especially during the school year to help her with homework, spend time with her, get her to bed on time, etc., as well as at least get me by for the time being while I'm in school still and still working on building strength physically and endurance. I have only worked full time during holidays at Edible Arrangements when I'd help , at my mom's store when I worked for them for a while. I've worked at Jimmy John's sandwich's, Sears and like I just mentioned Edible Arrangements since my heart surgery trying to find something that I can do to build upper body strength (sitting jobs or driving far would cause muscle spasms and such) and still have time for school and Kenzie. So I'm still looking for what seems best for me for right now in my life.

I've thought about being a correctional officer or even animal control officer, and the guy I have been dating has mentioned that I should go train to be a police officer but I just don't think right now I'm ready for that. Possibly in the near future. It sure has been a humbling experience and realizing that any job is better than none, yes even fast food jobs. I still get emails and calls from insurance companies that see my resume online that shows I was a life insurance agent at one time. I wish they'd realize hey there is a reason why I am not doing that anymore and I'm not looking to do it again with a different company. I loved it but I was not around enough for my daughter and time I've learned especially in her younger years is more important that lots of money. One parent less is rough enough for her I'm sure so I try to be in her life at least half as much!

Kenzie will be in 5th grade this coming school year. It seems so weird I have a 10 year old daughter!! A few more years and she'll become a teenager !! AUGH! LOL . I haven't been able to get Kenzie into dance or tumbling or even any sports since my heart surgery for lack of funds but lately we've gotten her into voice (singing) lessons! Her teacher is a girl I grew up with who was taught by the same teacher as Haley from Paramore and she is signed with David Archuletta I believe is what she said. She goes back and forth to Nashville (TN) often and says I should go with her sometime in the near future. That would be so great! Oh and now Kenzie is getting older she has decided within the last year she longer likes Hannah Montana! LOL . I watched it so much I started acting, overacting like her and she already was over the top on those shows. EEK . Haha Kenzie had a thing with Twilight and Robert Pattinson, but now says she's not so into it anymore. This past year she's really gotten into Harry Potter though.

I'm so happy it's summer! I can't wait for the good times that await! I hope to keep up on my blog at least somewhat more now! I hope everyone's summer turns out fantastic!!